My choices are vanishing
like snow in the sun. I see more and more that my choices for a job are melting away.
I see that I'm unsuitable for more and more jobs. Everything in the military, everything where may "payment" would come from states. I guess I'm less than useless for anything
in a union (maybe just not for administration of the IT-Infrastructure) I guess I would not even be a good teacher. I could work in a lot of handcrafts with not too much artistics in it.
I could probably be a good mechanic. I guess I would be not worse as a professional demolisher.
I remember there was a time where this all seem to be within reach for me. I even have gone to the military because I thought that would be a "good thing". Well yes I suggest you call me
naive. I still have this belief in me that men would not want harm on other men. So I guess in this regard I will never be "cold" or even "cool" enough.
I think I even could be a good salesmen in a few areas. E.g I guess I could find a suitable car or motorcycle for my customers. I'd doubt I would be very useful in any area where I'd should shut up my
quick tongue. You can expect me to tell (what I think) is the truth even if you did not want to hear it. I think I can cope well with being treated the same way.
In short I think I'm suitable for autonomous work. So I guess I have chosen my profession with enough sense for the things I can and can't.
I guess I would be a catastrophe in every area of "ruling". I do not want to rule and do not want to be rules. That's my "big" problem. I see it every day. I love
it when I can help my customers (directly) and I really dislike if can't and well I was even lost customers because of just learning a few things.
I just can see that I wish for more and more self-employed people. I think this just suits me...